Our baby girl, who isn’t so ‘baby’ anymore, turned one this month! How is that possible?!? Many people have told me children grow up so quickly, but I never realized what they meant until this month when my baby turned ONE. Wasn’t it just the other day that I was holding her in my arms at the hospital???
Some moms say they wish time would slow down or that their baby would quit growing up so quickly. But, ya know, I’ve thought about it, and I don’t want to have this mindset. I want to be intentional about enjoying every moment.
This child of mine was longed for and prayed for years before she was ever born. THIS is what I ‘wished’ for, why wish for something else? I want to embrace every moment. I want to spend quality time with her. I want to teach her things…new words, new tricks, new animal sounds, right from wrong, about Jesus and how much He loves her, how to serve, how to be polite, how to run and jump and climb, how to do a summersault, how to pray, how to read and write, how to share, how to give hugs and kisses and high fives and fist bumps. I want to watch her grow and learn and explore and share and interact. I want to do all of this!
After two an a half years of miscarriages, doctor appointments, surgeries, and countless prayers by countless people, Mark and I are super excited to share we are 20 weeks pregnant with a baby GIRL due in June! This is truly a miracle :).
As many of you know, we experienced four miscarriages. After our first two, we were referred to a specialist who found I had a very minor uterine abnormality that could be partially corrected with surgery. We were excited to hear this news because this meant something could be done to potentially increase our chances of a successful pregnancy. Choosing to have the surgery or not, though, was a bit of a tough decision for us. Here’s why…
The uterine abnormality was so minor that the doctor wasn’t even sure himself that it was causing the miscarriages. He said he’d seen women with much more severe uterine abnormalities than mine have successful pregnancies.
The surgery was minimally invasive and low risk; however, there were obviously risks associated with it, as there are with every surgery. If something went wrong during the surgery, my body could have had an even more difficult time carrying a child or, worst-case scenario, my body would be unable to carry a child. This is what really scared both of us. I just kept thinking, “If I have this surgery and my uterus is irreversibly damaged causing us to NEVER be able to have children, will I be able to get over it (especially since our doctor couldn’t be sure the abnormality was causing the miscarriages)?”
We stayed in constant prayer, and it wasn’t until two miscarriages later that we truly felt at peace with the decision to have surgery. I truly believe the Lord was with us throughout all of this, helping us make these decisions. Continue reading »